My darling Dee,

I know Nethra and I promised that we’d keep on updating your blog once you were gone but babe I don’t think neither of us are in the right mindset to keep on writing anymore. Two weeks prior to your first death anniversary Dex left us too babe. I am sorry Dee, we tried really hard to keep his head above the water. We really did babe. I am sorry we failed you. You never asked much from us when you were alive and we couldn’t keep the promises that we swore our lives upon. I know you never believed in afterlife but I hope against hope you and Dex found each other. Fucking hell, I don’t know whether I can keep writing anymore. Then in October we lost Jamie too babe.. He overdosed. We were wrapped up in our own bubbles of grief, didn’t even realize he had started to use again. Both the men that were wrapped around you 24/7 are now gone to be with you. Please don’t take Nethra babe.. Please.. I beg you.. and she is losing her mind.. Please don’t take her. I beg you. I don’t know what Eric and I would do if we lost her too. Please babe.. Please don’t.

Dakota